Frustration, embaresment , paying the consequenses

The joy of recieving my graduation was big, finally after 5,5 years I had completed my studies, got my diploma and was ready for work. I already had one possible job going on, I had already before I graduated been to an interview for a potential job. They were interested in me working beside my studies. I was willing to do that, since I was pretty much done at that point.

Now, however, it's late March and I'm still without a job. I've been to several interviews, I've sent a lot of applications, but still nothing. It's rather frustrating to be a newly graduated student and then have nothing. And what's worse, I'll go to the above mentioned company to work, and they've kept me on the edge for a long time, thus, I have lived in the belief that I will go there to work soon. I in fact despise the company. But it's the only one that is willing to offer me work, it seems.

I had somehow gotten the idea that I would have start working on 19.3 (Last monday), and thus I was a good boy and woke up early, packed my lunch and went to work, but there they were a bit surprised to see me, and I got a bit embarrassed when I learned that I was supposed to start working 11.4 (almost a month later).

So, living on government support for the time being. I now got my first payment (finally), but made a shocking discovery. The amount of money was very small. I checked my details right away, turns out I had been registered to live at my parents home all this time, and if one "lives with ones parents", one doesn't get that much support.

I changed it right away, but I've already wasted 2,5 months. What i get now is just about enough to pay for the rent alone. I'll go to the public pension office tomorrow and see if i can renegotiate with them, but first I will take a note from my rental agency proving that I've payed for my rent all this time.

Don't do the same mistake! (I will add a picture later)

I long for a vacation trip to the Baltics

School

Members of the church of jesus christ of latter days saints are "famous" for being diligent, hardworking, good in school etc etc. I am not. I am way below average in school. I am already 1 year overdue on my degree, but hey, I'm not going to give up, fight to the end! (meaning that I have the possibility to be one more year before i am kicked out, but i hope to get done before that happends)

A small but very happy step forward was that I just printed my poster for my thesis work, I'll post it down there.

Mormon messages...

I am usually a very positive and glad person, I smile a lot more than the average person in Finland. I talk a lot, I talk to foreigners (especially if they speak a foreign language, other than english... such as greek, russian, spanish or german, I instantly want to go up to them and talk to then to the extend of my abilities, the situation doesn't always allow for this though).

But! I do have my days also. I have been thought to pray and read from the scriptures when I feel down, it gives strength. But it's not always that I have the patience to take out the book and start reading, and just saying a prayer isn't always so mood-changing either (but occasionally it happends)... Something that fills the mind with good is needed (like reading the scriptures would be). But luckily my beloved church is led by inspired leaders and they have introduced "mormon messages" on the internet. The're right there, on youtube. And once in a while, a new video is added to the fold. Very often when I feel down, despair, lack of hope and [add word], I have gone onto youtube and watched one or a few of the videos and it's made my mood a lot better.
I have been reluctant to watch religious tv broadcasts, as they have not been in my taste. With the exceptions of "3ABN" - although not from my faith, they have good words in general. But the mormon messages are just fantastic! They have made by day very many times, who knows, they might just make my life as well :)

In a world where pornography and other bad things is within reach, I love the fact that there is now a source of good within reach, even on the internet! Easy to watch and they deliver the message in a good way.



This one is called 'Lessons I Learned as a Boy', it's one of many. There are many more, they vary in style. Some are easy and gladfull, others are deep. Some are interviews, others are from talks, such as the one above. There is another one below, it's called In the Spirit of Thanksgiving.

Firefighting!

So, I am active in the local VFD (That's volunteer fire department) - for all you acronym lovers ;) Both in the city where i study and the city where my parents live. It's something I absolutely love! Anytime I get an SMS, a little bit of adrenaline hit's the system and I check my phone without delay. If it reads "402B Byggnadsbrand; Medelstor...", the adrenaline will rush and I scramble to the fire station as fast as possible. I have a few pictures, they are not very good, but it's what I have to offer right now.




















































































Very often, I am presented the question of if i would start to do this for a profession rather than just as a volunteer. But I am afraid that it would turn it from a hobby that I love, into a job that I would get tired of doing, not wanting to wake up in the morning for another shift... Because right now, even an unwarranted fire alarm is a rush!

Also, whenever I present this occupation to people from Russia or Ukraine, the first thing they say is "It's very dangerous!" I don't think it is, we have a good safety culture and deaths on this job are seldom heard of. I know of one case in modern history. I would like to claim that working as a repairman at the papermill was more dangerous, I did that for one summer.

2 people i knew got into an accident.

On the 20th of September, in Utah. Two girls were walking across the road. They didn't walk across at a green light. A guy was driving along the road, he had a green light. He was distracted by something on the side of the road. He looked at it, and then turned back. Saw the two girls in front of him and couldn't do anything. He tried an evasive maneuver, but it was to late. The girls were Jessica Wilson who served a mission in the baltics, and her, and my good friend who was visiting.

The accident was fatal, Jessica died in the emergency departement at the hospital, the other girl was seriously mangled, but is expected to recover. Jessica went on to paradise, the rest of us have to linger. And hopefully be ready when our times come. We don't know when it is. Today, a car might crash into my back while I am out, tomorrow I might be in my role as a firefighter and the roof collapses onto me. I just hope I can be ready. I almost forgot to mention, all involved are LDS.

I know Jessica is better of now, she was a good person. My prayers are with the rest of the involved and the families of them. Hangi parem!

Mastering Russian

I had no interest in learning Russian untill my visit to the Finnish-Baltic conference in summer of 2008, untill then I though it was a stupid language spoken by stupid people and my Russian was limited to a few words. But at the conference i met Регина, Олесия and Катя who made me change my mind. They were, to my great suprise, very nice people, and it didn't take long untill I wanted to know some words (I'm a succer for languages, but that's another story). I soon had a list of words, but the alphabeth was very hard to learn (Now finally I have gotten that down, but it's still but a start).

I have since done a great deal of work to be able to learn this language that can be of great help, especially when living in Finland. I have since been on a visit to Russia (but that's a different story also). I want to share some facts that perhaps might help others as well.

I have some experience of learning new languages, I speak fluent Swedish, Finnish and English. But I also learned Greek on my 2-year mission, this was a crash-course greek learning that I have tried to take into consideration when studying Russian.

I have a couple of pocket books (a dictionary and a phrasebook), I have a childrens book, an ilustrated new testament stories for childrene, a bunch of newspapers. But dispite all this, me greatest help is my computer. I have downloaded the free and very helpfull (though, sometimes nerve-wrecking) byki language learner. (www.byki.com) and also use online dicctionaries and web pages, the list will be uppdated. I have written many lists containing verbs (with conjugations), pronouns, short aid words such as и, ре, из, от, к, с, а, бы... I watch russian tv sometimes, my favourite program is милитцеиская академия, a comedy show with simple language and obvious meanings and jokes.

List of usefull web pages: To be updated:
http://masterrussian.com - a massive web site that has everything you need.
http://mirtv.ru/ - you can watch 300 kbit/s stream of the tv channel for free. Quality isn't always the best but you still get the deal.

My litterature in russian, the illustrated new testament for children not included, not are my written lists.

3rd time I visit Riga.

And going there again, Riga and via Tallinn on the way back.

Facts
There was a small gathering of single young single adults in Riga. The young adult term refers to people aged 18-30, but in the Baltic district, the age restrictions aren't very restrictive and several over aged people are let in, I believe there were perhaps around 40 people in total present.

Why I could not go
From the start, I was not able to attend. I had plans to be at the physical test for a summer job at the fire brigade in Jakobstad (Pietarsaari), but I had been sick the other week and was not quite in shape for that. But I still had another problem: I had math on friday morning from 8:00 till 9:30, there was no good connection that would get me to Riga any earlier than around 22:00, and that had a hefty price on ut, if I would leave after math. I had abandoned my plans.

Why I decided to go, and how I went
But as time grew on, my desire to attend grew, on Thursday evening. I discovered that I could leave early from math and take a train at 9:22 and go with airplane from Helsinki and get there in the afternoon (I got there, on site, at around 18:30).
And so I did, all the cheap air tickets were gone, I noticed Air Baltic had the cheapest initial tickets, but it adds taxes and airport fees, so Finnair turned out to be the cheapest. But hot cheap, the whole package cost me over 300€! I stayed only for one day, I had to rush away to leave with the buss at 18:00. That was way to short time to spend in a fantastic city such as Riga. And with all the nice people that were there.

I took the cheap Ecoline buss to Tallinn and could sleep over at a members home. Went to the Russian meetings in Tallinn, stayed for two meetings in church and then took the Trolley to the center and hitched Tallink back to Finland to board the train to get back in time for my math on Monday morning. Ironically, my visit was bordered by math on both sides.

Summary
It was a totally crazy idea and it cost me a lot of money, but hey, it's better than a lot of other crazy things that people do. No one was hurt and no serious sins were committed. I have some kind of love for Riga, I can't quite explain it myself (but I bet other people love Thailand, and other vacation resorts for many reasons), but it's within reach and easy, fast and generally cheap to get to.

This picture was taken in Tallinn, before I got on the boat back.