Frustration, embaresment , paying the consequenses

The joy of recieving my graduation was big, finally after 5,5 years I had completed my studies, got my diploma and was ready for work. I already had one possible job going on, I had already before I graduated been to an interview for a potential job. They were interested in me working beside my studies. I was willing to do that, since I was pretty much done at that point.

Now, however, it's late March and I'm still without a job. I've been to several interviews, I've sent a lot of applications, but still nothing. It's rather frustrating to be a newly graduated student and then have nothing. And what's worse, I'll go to the above mentioned company to work, and they've kept me on the edge for a long time, thus, I have lived in the belief that I will go there to work soon. I in fact despise the company. But it's the only one that is willing to offer me work, it seems.

I had somehow gotten the idea that I would have start working on 19.3 (Last monday), and thus I was a good boy and woke up early, packed my lunch and went to work, but there they were a bit surprised to see me, and I got a bit embarrassed when I learned that I was supposed to start working 11.4 (almost a month later).

So, living on government support for the time being. I now got my first payment (finally), but made a shocking discovery. The amount of money was very small. I checked my details right away, turns out I had been registered to live at my parents home all this time, and if one "lives with ones parents", one doesn't get that much support.

I changed it right away, but I've already wasted 2,5 months. What i get now is just about enough to pay for the rent alone. I'll go to the public pension office tomorrow and see if i can renegotiate with them, but first I will take a note from my rental agency proving that I've payed for my rent all this time.

Don't do the same mistake! (I will add a picture later)

I long for a vacation trip to the Baltics